Is it normal to keep going back to the same boy. .

I'm 19 and I met this lad during RAG week last yr.
This is a long post but detailed and i need your opinions, so for the sake of my sanity, keep reading patiently.....

At the time, I was seeing someone, but I really liked this boy that I met. We talked a few times and got chatting on facebook, as friends, at least on my side it was frienidly chat. I always got hte impression that he wanted more but I was months into my first proper relationship and I was happy enough.

Anyway, way down the road, I had broken up with my BF and I was still friends with this same boy and he seemed not to change at all, he was as he always had been with me. He had been making advances all along but I laughed them off. I really liked him, and I showed signs of this to him and everything was fine. Just to let you know, I moved down from college t my hometown and this boy lived in the same area my college is, which is 3 hrs away.

All of a sudden, he broke it ti me he was seeing another girl all along and that he couldnt talk to me anymore. I felt upset a bit but i got over it. Then a few weeks later I got messages from him saying how he couldnt wait to see me in the Autumn and that he'd made a mistake. Now, i'm a strongwilled person normaly, but I fall to pieces everytime he writes me. He's the first proper lad I've liked in looks and personality.

We got talking again as normal even after he'd hurt me. Then just before I got back to college, i got a random message saying he was taken and that nothing could happen. I felt so strung along and used, even though nothing had happened, but he had all along expressed his liking for me. I tmoved on again and I saw him but blanked him completely the first night I went out in the autumn time in college. I ignored him completely thankfully, but then all these messages came my way saying how gorgeous i looked and how he'd missed me.

Soon after i was told by him that nothing would ever happen between us and that he'd lost interest in me altogether. Of course i had been with other lads as im young and single, and there had been pictures on my facebook which he had seen so i think that could have been jealousy on his part.

So we didnt talk for ages and then i went out the night of his grad, although i did not see him, then his friend died and he felt the need to share this with me and i was ok with that because he was a friend in need. He clearly stated that he wanted nothing from it, just friends, but i sorta want more, but im perfectly happy to talk to him because i like him, maybe too much.

Then on new years and the following days, he spoke about how much he regretted not meeting with me and being with me, that he'd been through a tough year and that 2013 would be different and that he still wanted nothing from us. I lashed out at him telling him how he'd led me on, and that i felt used and upset by all of his talk and prmises. Empty promises.

Even this minute he's texting me with all compliments and nice things, with x's at the end of his messages, yet Im no more enlightened as to what im doing. Im making a fool out of myself but i cant help it!!!! I dunno if its love or curiosity. I havent spoken to him face to face since last march and its getting t me really really recently. I just want to sat my peace and see what happens.

I dont know if he wants what i want, but then again, i dont know what i want.If he was like this and nothing was happening, how would it be if we were together. I know hw has a good heart, it's just a matter of getting through to that heart...

i know this was a long post, but id really appreciate your opinions and views, i know im a fool, but how do i get him?