Is it normal to just want things to go back to normal after war?
Ok so I went to Iraq, got blown up, probably should have died but I'm still here. I got home and I'm paralyzed down part of the left side of my body pretty much just can't open my hand. I get home and my wife of five years all the sudden wants to start partying and staying out late at night and pretty much being single while I'm sitting at home with our baby. Then she starts talking to a whole bunch of guys and they are callin her late at night and texting her yada yada. So after about a year of the craziness she calms down and starts acting ok again but there was this feeling I couldn't shake like she was tellin lies. So I make friends with one of the guys she's been talking to and he tells me that she cheated on me with him and this a year after it happened: I confront her she tells me it's true and I decided I would stay and try to work things out. Well it's been a few months and I feel like she wants nothing to do with me sexually at all I mean months go by! I never sleep and almos every night i lay awake and just hope she will start showing me some love: I mean I cook, clean, go to school and work and she works maybe two days a week and sits on Facebook the rest of the time. I want things to just go back to normal I mean I been to war and was Hirt and then came home to more war and am hurting worse. Really I wish I had died in Iraq and never knew all this. Why can't I get past this or get past her. I am full of love and compassion but it's just not returned and I just can figure out why I mean why do girls like guys who are jerks I am not one and will never be one so that's not an option! I left the NCO when I left the army!