Is it normal to just, not be normal?
I feel as if I am the black sheep of the family, my biggest flaw is my fat fetish...but I am the oddest one of the family, I like kinky things, draw people dying then being reserected, and my sentences are messed up sometimes. I like to sit in front of my fish tank and watch my fish...I am the quiet but talkative one in my class, i like to roleplay anything, i also like to pretend im dead sometimes and lie on the floor, im always either too hot or too cold, never normal, and I always feel like people are glaring at me (Especially the quiet ones in school) I beleive I am going to be murdered. I always have dreams I die somehow. Mostly by suffocation. One dream I had was about giant moles dragging me under the ground and suffocating me. I sometimes wake up and see things flying above me. (Hallucinating maybe?) I also have a horrid habit of chewing my nails (May be normal) I complulsivly draw on myself, and I like smelling the inside of monster cans (I did that for an hour once) hmm what else doesnt make me fit in...I find men stuffing women attractive...(there is something wrong there). And I like rubbing earlobes for some reason. and....I thing i have a seizure fettish...if anyone can help...please do...and tell me I fit in somewhere...