Is it normal to hurt yourself on purpose?
A couple of years ago, i fell off a tree and broke my ankle and got a huge tear in my side from a glass bottle. When i was in hospital, i met this nurse who came to see how i was doing. She is the hottest woman i have ever seen in my life, she has nice size breasts, an ass like a peach, the most amazing blue eyes, long curly black hair and the cutest face you could ever imagine. I would ask her to sort the duvet on the bed out for me just so i could look down her top and smell her sweet perfume. I was in hospital for about 6 weeks until my ankle healed and my side scarred over a bit. It was like the best 6 weeks of my life, getting to see that fine ass everyday and have her do things for me. When i got released to go home i could'nt stop thinking about her, i even had wet dreams about her, i'd wake up felling really cold and wet between my legs cause i'd cummed in my boxers in my sleep from dreaming about having sex with her. I could'nt take not seeing her anymore so i started jumping off things, getting friends to stamp on my arms and legs, riding my bike really fast into things, just with the aim of injuring myself so i can go back to hospital but nothing ever seems to work well enough, can't even break my arms! Whenever people are in hospital, even people i don't really talk to, i go to see them as an excuse just to see that sexy ass nurse again. Even just talking about her gives me wood. Is it normal?