Is it normal to hope something horrible happens to you?

Hi, I´m eighteen and have an mildly eventfull life, I think. One thing I have just recently noticed. Often when i go to the doctors to diagnose a disease I always hope it's something much worse than it is. I in general hope things happen to me like, get pregnant early by accident (I´m on the pill), I get assaulted etc. I don't know if I want this for attention or to have more experience. I myself don't think I am sick for thinking like this and that this irrational feeling probably has a rational explanation, but those that I have told this to say that it's kinda sick and get scared I might try to self harm. I have no intention of doing so, although i did in the past (I was stuck in an awful friendship which frustrated me and got me gnawing my hands with stress and anxiety, but that I know was also for attention because I wanted people to notice I felt bad). These feelings go hand in hand with big mood swings. Is this just a part of growing up? I can assume this has some primal connection with wanting respect and to test your strength, but it would mean a lot if I could get any helpful answers.

Voting Results
54% Normal
Based on 28 votes (15 yes)
Help us keep this site organized and clean. Thanks!
[ Report Post ]
Comments ( 3 )
  • Eveyana

    I think what you are after is sympathy. I'd say it's normal. It sounds like you haven't received much positive attention or sympathy in your life so you secretly crave it (by any means).

    Comment Hidden ( show )
  • I hope something great happens to you.

    Comment Hidden ( show )
  • kingsleycrowne

    be careful what you wish for. I used to be like this, I'm ashamed to say that I used to be so lazy that I became a hypochrondriac, I wanted a health issue as an excuse to lower expectations on me. At the time I found existence to be exhausting so I was looking for any excuse not to be keeping up with it.
    Thinking positive and filling yourself with self belief helps this. Set goals. Success is action. Health is your greatest possession and confidence your greatest friend.

    Comment Hidden ( show )