Is it normal to hold my mom responsible for my nature as a person?
Ever since I was little, my mom deprived me emotionally, physically, and mentally. I grew up poor, and my mom sucked the life out of me. She would barely spend any money on me, and she would use that money to buy herself whatever she wanted.
I would get teased at school because my mom forced me to wear clothes that didn't fit properly, and she would always send me to school with toddler lunchboxes and accessories, and I would get made fun of for that as well.
My mom basically raised me in a very deprived fashion. My mom would show me the smallest amount of effort to do anything for me. She would accept clothing donations, and give me those worn out clothes. My mom also never took me anywhere either, so I had almost no friends. I had little to no contact with people, I had to eat the same foods for weeks at a time, had to wear the same clothes for years even though they don't fit, and etc.
My mom, even to this day, is a very stingy and cheap person, although she became less and less stingy over the years.
I'm 21 today, and becoming 22 in less then 2 months. Even though I'm completely responsible for my own needs now, I can't help but hold my mom responsible for the way that I am today. I still lack alot of self-confidence as a person, and I still have other issues as well. Can I rightfully hold my mom responsible for the way I am today, and is it normal to feel like this?