Is it normal to heavily feel insanity?

in da hood we got a saying: "being insane is much better than being inWisconson"

What insane thoughts do you have? Most people have intrusive thoughts to some degree

There are times where I can get so enthralled in my emotions, usually something related to anger, that I stop thinking about the long term effects of my actions and I get cravings to impulsively act on them

I've talked with myself a lot on things like, am I really this person pursuing moral and mental development who endeavors to be as actualized as possible or is it all just my subconscious keeping me from rationalizing my fears of being psychotic or fundamentally broken as my true self

Something that helped me is understanding that there can be no good without bad, because how can something be good without something bad to compare it to? I also know that refusing to accept qualities about myself will cause them to come out unexpectedly, sometimes with vigor.

So I accept these bad qualities or whatever as part of me as much as I accept my decisions on how I compose myself in situations I find myself. Something that really helped this idea make sense was thinking about how water moves on top of the ocean; hundreds of mini waves, pushing into each other to form walls and receding away to create gaps, in a rhythmic but unpredictable flow.

If the waves are our thoughts, and if waves colliding represent an inner turmoil, then for every thought you think makes you crazy, there should be a way to rationalize that thought to make you feel sane

Like if you have an ex boss who is now assisting you do his old job and is doing far worse than when he held your job and he does things on purpose to piss you off or make more work for you or shows you how much he knows he can get away with you, you may want to pay someone to capture him and tie him up in a dungeon somewhere so you can torture him by slowly carving away at his body with a small replacement blade for a box cutter, or you can use that anger to show your new boss how much more valuable you are than him, thereby making his existence inconsequential and any further negative action taken by him just becomes a training opportunity, like it's his first day on the job

But you know people can be just as fluid as the water the waves dance on, so sometimes you may want to imagine slicing off pieces of his eyeball just so you can have the other half of the collided wave that says giving him a list of things to do will be just as gratifying

Many people think that questioning your sanity it's a sign that you are not insane.

Take antipsychotics if ur thoughts bother u.