Is it normal to have your family hate you?

I have left out of my house for the second time because im the type of person who doesnt like negative environments and my house is definitely a negative place, always loud and family members talking behind one anothers back, well i have been feeling so depressed and out of my element at the house. i would stay in the room and cry like just feeling alone but alone in a busy household. i love my family and im there for everyone when it comes to listening and helping out but i never seem to get the correct appreciation by my own peers. i get disrespected and i was sick of it, at the time i was at the edge of losing my boyfriend. so i left. is it normal for my brother to treat me shitty and tell me he doesnt want me in his life and that he hates me? when i have always covered and protected him ,i even attacked a guy for him and in the end i get nothing and no support frm him because i left the house. nobody understands the things im feeling because nobody takes the time to listen. im always feeling alone even when im around people. i smile when im sad. why do people treat me like nothing? why does my whole family think im a wild out of control person? i just want respect that i deserve. they dont see how much modeling means to me either, everything is what they want for my life. if not they bitch and bitch. idk im just sad as hell right now. im scared as well because my oldest brother has been locked up for the past few years and hes way protective over me. and i guess my mom went to visit him n idk what it was she told him but she called this morning saying when he gets out hes going to deal with me. i just hope nothing bad happens he gets out in 5 weeks. what should i do about my other brother? that lives with me?

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  • missingpiecesofsleep

    Families can fuck you up if you're not careful. I come from a busy household and my family are also the kind to always be bitching behind each others' backs. They can also be confrontational and overly-dramatic. However, I love them and I know they love me, even when it doesn't seem like it - my father is deliberately excluding me from the family at the moment. I'm not even sure why as I definitely have done nothing wrong. Most of my immediate family members also think my ambitions are a joke. Not everyone's family is like the families gathered around dinner tables in TV adverts :P

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    You need to live your own life or you will live to regret it one day. Show them how serious you are about modeling by having a realistic plan to back up your ambition with.

    I think you should write a letter to your family clearly outlining the situation in which you feel you now stand, without sounding angry, bitter or begrudging. Include that you love them and that you felt a letter was the easiest way to let them completely know how you feel about things without it errupting into an argument or interruptions. Be willing to make compromises if you play a part in causing the negative environment also (you could be completely innocent, I have no idea).
    As for your brother in jail - can't you visit him by yourself and tell him your side of the story? Also, your mum may have been scaremongering a little so don't worry too much about that.
    Anyways, good luck.

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    • casandra18

      thankyou for that i really do appreciate it. yeah i know they love me like i called my mom this morning but she was pissed screaming that my brother in jail is disappointed in me but shit dude i know i fuck up alot alot but im not a bad person just make stupid ass decisions.

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