Is it normal to have vulgar thought and can't stop them?

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I'm having trouble keeping my mind clear of abnormal thoughts. I think of the worst possible situations like what does my aunts vagina smell like, committing a murder, thinking of doing the worse to a child, hearing a neighbour dying and doing nothing to prevent it. These are just some.

I don't get off on these what so ever, I feel sick knowing this is all coming from my brain. I'm level headed and consider myself to be smart. But I just can't help imagining, this is scaring me. I know in my heart I would never act upon any these putred thoughts.

Im mid 20s and have always had fear of going to jail for a murder I did not commit! The past few years I have always been very self concious and obsessed with looking good, keeping things neat n tidy and constantly worry how others conceive me. I always walk the long way round my car to check my parking, I need the hangers in my wardrop all to face the same way. And some other stuff. I am a homosexual but dont think this is connected? Also I have no self esteem or confidence, doesnt matter how long I stand at the mirror im always thinking how bad I look.

I try not to go out the house if I need a haircut or if im looking that bad. I often pretend I dont see people (that I know) so I dont need to stand and chat because it feels like everything I say is shit convo and dont make much sense. Plus they probably dont want to chat to me.

So, in conclusion for the bad thoughts my theory is, I have a mental form of tourrets. Although im not sure such an illness exists?

And the theory I have for things to be perfect is ocd. But I know im not ocd because ive watched documentaries and I am no where near as bad.

Should I see a doctor?
IS THIS NORMAL?
Anyone else relate to the above?

Even submitting this feels criminal. Just waiting for a cop to chap the door and arrest me for it!

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    You have intrusive thoughts about what your aunts vagina smells like? Sorry but that made me laugh. I could not help myself.

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  • jeebley
    10 years ago

    Get out of that head, you're trapped in there!!!

    But seriously, do a google search for intrusive thoughts and I think you'll find that you're not alone. Find some strategies for dealing with it. I think it may be related to OCD, though I'm not sure.

    You need to learn how to let these thoughts pass, and realise that they don't reflect who you are in any way. Try and just observe them, laugh at how ridiculous they are and don't take them seriously.

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  • TwoThumbs
    10 years ago

    Sounds like Anxious thoughts. The problem with them is that when you react to them in a negative way (cringe, tell yourself there's something wrong etc...) you are giving them power. That means it causes you to be more anxious and to spend more time with them than necessary. At this point your have obsessive thoughts that are things you fear...It doesn't mean you're a bad person. It means you should probably seek a therapist. You should also look into Mindful Meditation to help you deal with these thoughts. If you practice this I would bet it would help you a ton.

    Full Catastrophe Living by Jon Kabat-Zinn is a great book reagarding mindful meditation. You can youtube mindful meditation as well but its probably better to read the book as well to get a full understanding...but first seek a therapist.

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  • Freedom_
    10 years ago

    "Everything Is Alright"

    Tell me that you're alright, Yeah everything is alright. Oh please tell me that you're alright, Yeah everything is alright.

    Give me a reason to end this discussion, To break with tradition. To fold and divide.

    Cause I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes, Talking with strangers, waiting in line.. I'm through with these pills that make me sit still. "Are you feeling fine?" Yes, I feel just fine.

    Tell me that you're alright, Yeah everything is alright. Oh please tell me that you're alright, Yeah everything is alright.

    I'm sick of the things I do when I'm nervous Like cleaning the oven or checking my tires Or counting the number of tiles in the ceiling.. Head for the hills, the kitchen's on fire!

    I used to rely on self-medication, I guess I still do that from time to time. But I'm getting better at fighting the future, "Someday you'll be fine.." Yes, I'll be just fine.

    Tell me that you're alright, Yeah everything is alright. Oh please tell me that you're alright, Yeah everything is alright.

    Give me a reason (I don't believe a word) To end this discussion (of anything I've heard) To break with tradition (they tell me that it's not so hard) To fold and divide (it's not so hard) So let's not get carried (away with everything) Away with the process (from here to in-between) of elimination (the long goodbye) I don't want to waste your time.

    Tell me that you're alright, Yeah everything is alright. Oh please tell me that you're alright, Yeah everything is alright.

    (Alright) Tell me that you're alright, (Hi, everything's great) Yeah everything is alright. (Everything's fine) Oh please tell me that you're alright, (Hi, everything's great) Yeah everything is alright. (Everything's fine) [x4]

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    • Agirlsbestfriend.
      10 years ago

      Did I have to read the whole thing 4 times or just that last bit? I read the whole thing 4x just to be safe. (Thankfully I could stop there as it was an even number).

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      • Freedom_
        10 years ago

        Lol. Just the last part. It's a song by motion city soundtrack. I like to listen to it when i feel similar to OP.

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        • Agirlsbestfriend.
          10 years ago

          Well I'd prefer you didn't in future. I listened to it and frankly, I was disappointed and would like a refund. I know you're thinking "whatever, you don't have to listen to it", but honestly, I would much prefer that you didn't listen to it either. There is also far too much spectacle wearing in the video. Thank you for respecting my wishes.

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          • Freedom_
            10 years ago

            I haven't seen the video, but I agree, this is a sucky band, but still I like the song.

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  • Dulse.
    10 years ago

    I can so relate to this. It happens to many and you're not alone man. You should go to a doctor though, no need to suffer in silence.

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  • charli.m
    10 years ago

    Thoughts are not illegal. The fact that they are causing you distress is enough to go see a professional, in my books.

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