Is it normal to have violent thoughts when holding a knife?
Sometimes when I hold a knife, I can't help but have "sinister" thoughts racing in my head. It's so weird, but at the same time kinda exciting.
As I cut whatever I'm cutting, I like to pretend that I'm cutting/stabbing someone. It just...makes me feel so stimulated, for the lack of a better word. My favorite image is stabbing someone in the eyes with 2 knives and see blood squirting out uncontrollably--only to gouge out their eyeballs, with blood still flowing out of their eye sockets continuously.
Do I have suppressed serial killer tendencies? Like...I'm not gonna lie, I have a feeling I will do something REALLY crazy if I'm fueled with extreme anger.