Is it normal to have this perception on life?

I have no motivation, interests or incentives to do anything in life. I'm not saying this from my cynical view towards the world, I'm just being honest. A while ago I realized that religion could just be a way to get us to act a certain way or could just be made up, which is a huge risk to devote your life to, not knowing if it's real. It could all just be a guess on what's next for us or give us false hope. I used to want to be a very successful person and wanted all these nice things. I was extremely motivated to do well in life and I am fully capable of doing these things, but now I realize that nothing really matters because in the end it all goes away. All we are are people with hopes, dreams and possessions and once we're gone, so are all of those things. I long to find peace with myself because it is so hard to wake up knowing all of this could be pointless. That everyone spends so much time working their asses off (which I used to do) or stressing over things, personally or professionally, that don't even matter in the end. I'm trying to find my purpose or a reason to be here, some inner peace because I'm slipping and hanging on by a thread. I'm not suicidal but am extremely conflicted and am just going through life, pretty much just existing. I live each day with these thoughts flooding my head and doing nothing for myself because I don't know if my effort towards anything will be worth it.

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Comments ( 6 )
  • JellyBeanBandit

    Well at least you realise that money and frivolous material possessions and career success won't make you happy. A lot of people waste a good proportion of their lives striving for those things only to be disappointed at how little it did to make them happy once they've achieved them. So (thinking positively) that's brilliant! Now all you need is to find something that will make you happy, something meaningful and selfless, like helping others and making deep connections with people. It might sound like a load of corny old rubbish but it's actually true.

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  • nikkiclaire

    I am sort of the same although I haven't given up on my jobs. I go through the motions hoping it will pass but I don't think it will.

    I don't want any fancy stuff and don't really want to fall into the success trap. I just want peace and for people to mind their own business.

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  • cipro

    My mission in life is to help dogs. It gives me happiness.

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  • howaminotmyself

    Just focus on the now. Clichés aside, do things that bring joy. The end doesn't matter. It does not always bring a sense of fulfillment. To each thwre own. What works for one, does not work for all. The hardest thing in life is to shed away all of societies conditioning and learn what truly makes one feel that inner peace. We search a lifetime for it. In the end, I believe we figure it out. But the point isnt to have the answer, just to seek it.

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  • dillo

    Yeah but once you realize that then what's stopping you from doing whatever you want while you're here? All the worrying is equally as pointless with that mindset that we're all just nothing and were all gonna die one day.

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  • Whatintarnation

    Do you have a family, or close friendships, something besides material possessions? Stuff doesn't make a fulfilling life in my estimation. I think a sense of purpose is what a lot of people are lacking.

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