Is it normal to have these mood swings?
I'm a lonely person and have been for quite some time. Family doesn't bother contacting me unless it's my birthday, haven't had a friend contact me since I left high school, and probably don't care that I'm even around, and I live in a city not known for being too "exciting". Even when I do something, I get bored because it's so dull. The fact I have no friends makes things worse.
Normally I've embraced my loneliness and not really caring that I'm alone. Over the last several months, however, I've been having these kind of mood swings - I'd feel so happy and elated for a couple of weeks, then feel down for a few days. It usually starts with irritation, then depression, then numbness, and then I feel fine. And the cycle repeats.
The last few hours in particular I've been really down. I don't feel motivated to do anything. If I think of doing something, I get the urge not to do it. Listening to music doesn't help me any, but it makes me escape into my own fantasy world. So I guess it's better than nothing.
I've made online friends but they're not always online, and I don't like telling them about my problems. Yes, they've made me feel less lonely, but it's not the same. I can't really meet them in person this instance due to distance.
This most likely made no sense but I guess I want to know if this is normal. I feel like it is, but part of me feel like it isn't. I don't know anymore..