Is it normal to have these feelings and fears?
Ok, so me and my husband already have 2 kids. One is 4 and one is 2. My problem lately is I keep thinking about being pregnant and have the urge to have another one.Everytime I seem to get it off my mind I end up dreaming about being pregnant having a baby. We use protection and slip up sometimes. We both agreed if it does happen we'll except it. I dont want another baby in my life right now, but I also cant stop thinking about it and haveing the urge to. I dont even know if I want another one, period because the 2 I have now are such a handful and I dont know if could handle 3. I told my husband that if we did have another one I'd want to start trying a year before my youngest starts school, but I cant stop thinking about it now. but I dont think I could carry the burden of yet another persons life in my hands. I'm already a very paranoid mother, and dont let my kids step 3 feet away from me even playing in the yard, and check on them every 20 min when their sleeping to make sure their breathing and have both their beds in my room cause my husband goes to work at 2 in the morning and im scared of someone breaking in and taking them. And I wont let anyone babysit my my kids except for my own mother and I never let them stay the night. And it goes on and on but back on subject I just dont know what to do. I cant stop thinking about it but I dont want another one cause I dont think I could handle it. IS IT normal?