Is it normal to have such a crazy fear of this particular video game
First a little background, I am 26, exmilitary, served in Iraq, now co-own a company with my Dad, pretty normal person I would say. I'm a gamer, been a gamer for a while now. There is a game series called Silent Hill that has also been made into a movie. Now I have been to war, seen bad stuff, played a lot of games, seen movies, and nothing in the world has come close to scaring me as bad as this game. It's not even fear, its like I feel sick to my stomach, have mild panic attacks, and I start to cry when I even think about SH (I will say SH because I really don't want to type it out). It is crazy. I have played plenty of scary games before, and the thing is, I have not even played through any of the whole games! I have only gotten through 25% of SH 4 game 10% of SH 2, and about 5 minutes of
SH 3. I watched the movie and I was crying and I didn't even know why, nothing on screen going on sad, just a psychological reaction, like my soul was being weighed down and in pain. I am a Christian and believe in demons but I have played and watched many other demonic themed things and never had any sort of reaction like this, was not even scared. I played SH 2 and my friend ended up calling 911 cause I thought I was having a heart attack and almost passed out. Just writing this story about SH I am starting to have a mild panic attack coupled with nausea. Earlier today I watched a trailer for a new SH game and hot tears started streaming down my face, that is the main reason I am writing this, and my eyes are burning right now. I know this can't be normal, can it? I have never had any sort of psych problem or any history of mental illness or anything.