Is it normal to have panic attacks this bad
I smoked pot for the first time in about 2 years. I was home alone, Ive been feeling blue lately, and really stressed out. I was listening to some music in my brothers car and just started smoking. I started doing really f*cking weird stuff that I felt like I had no control over. I had no track of time, and no idea what order these things happened in...at first it was fun, I got out of my brothers car and just started running through my backyard, unable to stop, or even feel anything, my body and head felt numb so i kept running.
i went back inside and started just walkng around, in every room, and touching things, and even seeing things that werent there...everything was totally dream like.
then I remember eating a bowl of ice cream on my couch, and i stopped and stared at it for about 10 minutes and then dumped it all over myself. I got up ran out of the room, came back and there was no ice cream anywhere, or on myself...so im imagined it...
then it started to get scary and I wanted it it stop more than anything while i was running around, unaware of what i was even doing or why, i started having flashbacks, as if i remember being born, and kept having flash images of birth and deaththan i noticed i was laying in my bed repeating all of the peoples name that i miss. then I started yelling out loud all of my inner faults and insecurites.
I also counted up to about 700 out loud, because i remember snapping back into it again and i just heard myself counting. I felt like I was having nightmares while I was awake. it felt like all my inner demons and insecurites were surfacing. my mind kept playing tricks on me and i thought maybe i was dead and in purgatory and the feeling would never stop. I felt like I had to do something outrageous to make it all stop. luckily I didnt.
can anyone relate to having such an odd side effect from just marijuana...
it lasted from 9am to 12pm