Is it normal to have ballbusting fantasies?
So it started a couple of years ago when I was clicking on random videos Youtube and saw one video where a girl kicked a guy in the nuts. At first I was like, "Holy shit, that must hurt!" Then I moved on and proceeded to watch other random videos. But it left a deeper impression than I had anticipated.
Couple of days later I found myself going back to that video and watching it again, reading the comments to see what other people had said. And go back again and again from time to time. And each time I watched, I liked it more and more. And I was getting aroused by it.I thought it was a passing phase. Boy was I wrong.
Then later I intentionally started searching for such videos on Youtube. I watched them and was satisfied. I started doing it from time to time, maybe every couple of days. But it wasn't enough. Then I started googling and for the first time saw ballbusting videos. I didn't know it was a thing. Frankly, I was horrified by some of the videos and vouched not to watch them again.
But my urges got the better of me and couple of days later I went back and watched, got horrified again, and stopped. This would repeat for next couple of days.. weeks. Then at one point I started liking watching them. So much so that I pleasured myself to the point of climax.
Ever since, I have been regularly watching ballbusting videos from time to time. That's not the only kind of porn I watch but I have seen all sorts of such videos. From women kicking guys in the nuts to stepping on them.
I know it's painful but I do fantasize about women busting my balls. Although I don't know whether I would want to try it in real life.