Is it normal to have a voice in your head that hates you?
I've always had incredibly low self esteem, but after a while it grew to something greater. There's a voice in my head that constantly insults me, tells me how worthless I am, and encourages me to hurt myself.
She is vain, and she always says she hates living inside my mind because she doesn't like my ugly body. Sometimes she puts in random comments in the middle of conversations like, "You're not worth that" or "that's because you're a b****" etc. She also says that other people's pain and anger is my fault, even if it doesn't make sense.
She's always happy when I'm sad or upset, and she often tells me I should kill myself, that I don't deserve to live, that I should leave my family/friends alone, etc.
So tell me, is this normal? I mean, I know that what I've really done is personified my own low self esteem, but it seems it's grown much too far and now I don't know how to stop it.
So help me, please?
Oh, PS. Her name is Self Hatred. That's what she likes to be called. After all, that's what she is, right?