Is it normal to have a really bad trip the first time you try weed?
Okay so my friends said I wouldnt probably get high the first time. I took a couple big hits and it burned like hell, and I waited for a minute and suddenly everything when fuzzy and the rest of the day was a mess.
I couldn't look straight at things or concentrate at all, the walls were crawling a little, I kept tripping out on the radio that was on, and got really paranoid that someone would smell the weed and get us in trouble.. i started having really deep thoughts but couldnt express them properly and then my friends laughing started to scare me so I went into a room by myself and sat curled on a couch and stared at a tv that wasnt on, and i was terrified to talk to anyone. i looked at myself in the bathroom mirror and couldnt see my reflection clearly.
then my friends wanted to go to the beach and thats where things got really weird. i started shaking pretty badly and suddenly everything seemed really far away and i lost complete track of time and space and we nearly got hit by a car because we were so out of it.
I think the sun was really bad for me because everything really started to slow down, and i suddenly lost track of my senses and i remember i had trouble putting my beach towel down and i kicked sand at a lady who was sitting beside us and I could barely speak to apologize... my voice was really low, slow and quiet for some reason.
then i was staring up at the sky and it seemed really close to my face and i thought i could touch it... the high started to wear off but you see I have had some really serious residual effects.
i get really bad anxiety attacks in public groups, i have had trouble with my memory and with communicating with others. i have felt extremely isolated from people, and have trouble trusting people's sincerity. i have talked about my experience with friends and family, and delt with a lot of guilt and regret. i just dont know if i will ever get back to feeling normal again.
none of my friends had the same experience, they said they had an intense high but none of them tripped out. im really concerned ive done permanent damage to my brain.
it still feels a little hazy even to this day, and that was a year ago. seriously. I am still feeling like im battling the anxiety and loss of memory.... and i have never felt so depressed in my life. it took away my love of life, my sharp intellect and the crisp feeling of my senses. i lost a lot of my will power and my passion for life, and ive been fighting every day since to get it back.
has anyone else experienced this dramatic a first high? it was terrifying and i will never touch drugs again on my honour. i hope those of you who are interested in the side effects before you try them read this and take my advice, it is not worth the risk.
i realize this is probably rare but hey i was told i wouldnt get high and now i feel like ill never come down.
do yourselves a favour and don't try this stuff.