Is it normal to have a rape fetish (to this extent)
I posted this before but like one person replied lol so I'm gonna post it one more time. Sorry.
Yeahh so.
I'm a female and have a rape fetish but I don't think it's to a normal extent. I don't want to "roleplay" with safe words and shit like that. I mean I guess I WOULD but that's not really the main appeal.
I'm genuinely aroused by situations that would be actually bad for me. For example, I was invited to hang out with a guy earlier. I didn't go over there because I felt he wouldn't take no for an answer, and I have a boyfriend, but if I didn't have a boyfriend and he took advantage of me I'd be traumatized obviously but also extremely aroused.
I get really aroused when men do things to me that they "shouldn't." When someone had sex with me when I kept passing out I was extremely aroused (i dated him after it was a disaster), and when someone else stealthed me, held me down and hit me, I was also really aroused.
I've had a lot of sexual trauma as a kid that probably isn't normal. Is this a normal reaction?