Is it normal to have a guilt after loosing virginity?
Well hello everyone !! I had a boyfriend and I thought that we both love each other a lot. We were in a relation for almost 5 months. But earlier we were friends too. One day he asked me to have sex but I totally refused him because being an Indian girl I am not allowed to do something like this. I am from a well educated family. And he's not. But still I loved him a lot. He later convinced me by saying that we both know that we'll marry each other so there's no problem in doing this. I was still not ready but I did because I feel he'll be happy like this. I trusted him a lot. He used to told me that I'll be with you always. He was not a virgin. And me too lost my virginity with him. Later my parents got to know about all this. And they were really sad and hurt. I really hurt them. Always feel bad about this. They went to my bf's home and asked him about our relation and he refused. He said we were not in a relation. I tried to save him till the end. And he just ditched me like this. But later he agreed about our relation. My mom asked that if u love her keep her with yourself and he said no. That was really hurting. He never loved me. Just used me like a chewing gum. Sometimes I really felt bad that my parents always loved me so much and I hurt them. And the person I loved ditched me. Why ?? Now each and everyday I feel really guilty as I am not a virgin anymore. And I hurt my parents a lot but they still love me. I feel as a good man don't deserve a girl like me. I feel so worthless.