Is it normal to have a fetish for medieval cannons?
Hi, I have kept this strange fetish out of my family and friends and never asked anyone about it, I kept it in great confidence.
I at some times (when I am at my laptop for example) think about medieval grey cannons (The naval cannons especially) and search for pictures and videos about those cannons and feel like wanting to do some love to them, like a fetish or something, however I never wielded a gun before nor my family or friends have any guns or any ties with the military (my family at least) and for me it's just Medieval cannons not any other guns or any other medieval weapons, I don't know for how long I had this fetish but I feel like I wish I owned a cannon (however not loaded with cannon balls or gunpowder of any kind, just the tube and wheels) and feel like sitting and leaning on one and maybe even hug it, I don't own any cannon nor I have access to any gun so I feel weird.
Also if it matters I wrote a fanfiction regarding my liking about medieval cannons (tough some parts are slightly exaggerated)
Here is the link
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/9372455/1/Love-Cannon
I hope I am not the only one, obviously this isn't something I reveal to the people around me, they would think I'm crazy and I hope I'm not :/