Is it normal to hate yourself to this extent?

I think you should ask a professional for help. No, it doesn't mean your crazy, it just means you're in a really bad spot and you need some help to get out. Some of us are more privileged to never have to ask for help from a therapist but I'm sure we all could use one. I used one too when I hated myself.

I bet the image you keep of yourself is way more extreme than what you actually look like. Bullying sucks and can severely damage a person's self esteem and confidence. All of the problems start in your head though and can ultimately only be solved by you when you are ready to face them.

When I feel down I will usually lift weights even when I don't want to and I always feel a lot better afterwards. Maybe you could try something like light exercise to boost your confidence and naturally elevate your mood It can't do any harm and you will surely thank yourself for doing so. **blows load on New shirt

Problem #1 You're Fat.

Nothing more to say, way way to many people are overweight, more and more each day reach the Obese title.

Diet and Go to the GYM and lose weight. You will learn social skills, discipline, self control and confidence.

All these things will improve once you stop being a lard ass.

-Pantz

Please don't die,

Do you have two legs that work? I assume yes. So be thankful for that. Do both your eyes and both your ears work? See my point?

Bullying sucks. It's been so many years since grade school, but I still can't help but dream of tracking down one of the girls who picked on me just so that I can rape her to death.

Self-esteem is hard to rebuild. Talk to a mental health professional. You may have major depression, which can be treated with medication and behavioral therapy.

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This sounds like a issue you should see a professional about and in the mean time, try getting into better shape if you are able. Sitting around and hating your appearance isn't going to solve anything. Take action and take control of your life. I highly doubt you're as awful as you say you are, you are your own worst critic.

By the way, despite what you may have been told, most men don't care THAT much about weight.

If we're all honest with ourselves I think it's the human condition to hate ourselves from time to time. I think what you have to do is learn not dwell on it and know you "always" have the power to change something you don't like about yourself. Whether that's dieting & excercise, seeing a counselor or a life coach, or even expressing/releasing this hate through art. The possibilities are vast but doing nothing about it is not going to get you anywhere. I think what you have to ask yourself is "do I really want to the rest of my life feeling this way"?

I think this is the result of the bullying. You need self acceptance. Your body can be improved by fitness and diet. Work on these things.

I'm sorry to hear what you've been through but you have shown amazing fortitude to have made it through what must of been a difficult period. For that, at least, you should be proud. Courage in adversity is what builds our character, don't betray that by destroying your own esteem.

Your self-esteem is shattered! : / This level of self-loathing doesn't make for a content life but you don't have to feel this way. So some people once told you you weren't good enough in some way (the bullies) or they ripped apart an aspect of you. The fact is, they were feeling bad about themselves and had their own issues and some people take it out on others. Ask yourself if you really deserve to feel this way. I bet the answer is no. No one is truly completely happy with every aspect of themselves, but we can be happy with the majority. So you might always dislike your legs. Ok, but they're still the legs that carry you around and can take you to places and allow you to move through your life in the way you know how. I used to analyse my own body and wish aspects were different, but learning to accept what I have has been liberating. It wasn't an over night thing, though, obviously. As for feeling like a burden... that's common and you're not alone. Right now, though, you're kind of being a burden on yourself? I think you know you deserve to feel better, so maybe that's a good place to start. Everytime you have negative feelings about yourself, you could try repeating a mantra in your head? Something like - I don't deserve this. You might feel silly, but at the moment, you're reaffirming to yourself that you're inadequate in some way by keep having these negative thoughts about yourself, so some positive reaffirmation might help balance things. Also, don't put a load of pressure on yourself to feel different really quickly, as a longer journey of growth is probably what you need.

I hate myself. I love everyone else. I lie.

In the words of Jon Taffer... "You do something about it!"

Ultimately, the only person that can change you is yourself. If you don't like what you see in the mirror, then take a stand and plan a milestone. Nothing that is long-term changes overnight, so you have to be patient for results. You may also want to seek professional help. Having someone there to talk to about your hardships can assist in dissipating negative feelings and moving on with your life.

Also, don't correlate weight with sex. That's like saying, "The skinnier I am, the more sex I'll have!" It's a fallacy and it makes no sense. When it comes to romantic relationships, fat people should never be loved more or less than skinny people.