Is it normal to hate yourself?

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I hate myself. A lot. I hate myself to the point where if I were someone else and I met myself, I would happily go to jail for murder. I can't look into a mirror for too long because these feelings get so strong.

I'm not a bad person, but I feel like I should be treated as such, which is why I normally let people walk all over me. I spend many a sleepless night berating myself on the mistakes I've made, no matter how little they were or how long ago they were, even silly things I did as a child. When I look at old photos of me when I was a child, I get angry and I wish that I could go back in time just to painfully strangle this little girl to death.

I tell myself that I should have been aborted, that I should be tortured, that I should be raped because I deserve those things. If something bad happens to a friend or even a stranger, I spend the rest of the day thinking with guilt that it should have happened to me instead. I believe I deserve to be burned alive because that, I imagine, is the most painful way to die. I can't even go a few hours without thinking any of these things.

Don't get me wrong. I don't /want/ bad things to happen to me, but I know I deserve them. Is it normal I have this level of hate for myself?

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  • RoseIsabella
    10 years ago

    Get help!

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    • mzwah
      10 years ago

      I'm expiriencing something similar and I want to revenge myself but I don't want to kill anyone

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  • gins2
    10 years ago

    I think hating yourself is normal. I used to criticize myself so much. I'd see other people's mistakes as "light" and "normal", but my mistakes were totally horrible. And whatever good thing I did was never good enough to turn me into a good person again. I felt like I had no feelings anymore, because I was so used to sadness I didn't remember how happiness and that feeling "I'm fitting in, I have friends and I feel cool" used to feel like I used to slap myself sometimes because I thought I deserved to be someway punished. :P But it went away.

    I realized what was making me so sick was overthinking. Happy people don't think, they DO. Action is a billion times better than anything you can think about. We all can sense what is good for us and it normally is our first decision. So, I always go with that. I do things. If they go wrong I try again. But I never overthing about what to do.

    Have you ever thought why you hate yourself so much? I simply used to think I wasn't as special as other people or didn't deserve to be happy because of some past mistakes. Even little ones. Like, I didn't deserve to go to college because I used to be a bad student. Which is NOT true. Whatever we've done it can't define you. We're not our past. We are what we are, NOW. We are not how we see ourselves but how we want to be.

    I struggled a lot to stop having these thoughts. But I eventually did. And I'm a happier person now. I now believe I can. I am special and I deserve things just as much as any other person. I'm a kind, cute person and I'm not gonna be modest about it because I am now happy to say what I know I am. So... back to what I was saying, It's gonna be damn hard. It's pretty much like dieting. You're going to try a thousand times, but during one of these tries, it'll work. =) But you gotta keep trying.

    Fill your mind with things that make you happy so you won't have any free time to think of these things that make you sad or that you don't deserve to be loved/happy or that tell you you're not special.

    I love reading romantic stories and having a special couple I can ship. I bought a bunch of books and they simply filled my mind. I got ideas on how to act around my friends and I finally started to get my feelings back =)

    Keep trying. That's it.

    Hope I helped! =)
    God bless! Xoxo <3

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  • Paris2005
    10 years ago

    My friend, get professional mental health as soon as possible. Please. I did and it made me feel sooo much better.

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  • bestanna62
    10 years ago

    Don't be so hard on yourself, start being a bit more positive.Nobody will ever love or respect you until you love and respect yourself. You need to start thinking better of yourself. Your whole self esteem defines who you are.Everyone has problems. If you need to talk to someone about your issues, go and talk to someone.

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  • GoraIntoDesiGals
    10 years ago

    I can totally relate. *hug*

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    • LostAndBroken
      10 years ago

      This plus 1.

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  • Terence_the_viking
    10 years ago

    Cheeseburgers make me hate myself why do i let them torment me so.

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    • NotStrangeBird
      10 years ago

      Unless you weigh 500lb I say ditch the guilt and have a double with bacon dammit!!!

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  • voges
    10 years ago

    Every human being has positive qualities and alot to offer, including yourself. I'm sure if I met you I could point out many good attributes that you have.

    Everyone makes mistakes and does silly things; its normal. Don't be hard on yourself.

    Why do you feel this way about yourself? What have you done so wrong?

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  • NotStrangeBird
    10 years ago

    Holy crap, learn to move on. Forgive yourself and blame the fuckheads in your life for being just that. They'll never change, you can.

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