Is it normal to hate your voice?
I hate my voice.
No, really. I hate my speaking voice- I think it's too low for a girl's. I used to get teased about it a lot, but that's not really what I mean.
I hate my singing voice would be a better statement.
I've been in choir since I was in the first grade, never got any solo or part in a musical. I always find things wrong with my voice, like it sounds nasal or that I have too little vibrato or that I'm pronouncing things wrong (which half of the time, I'm not). People compliment me on it all the time, but.. I just, I don't know. I know they're being genuine and they think my voice is really pretty, but I hate it.
It's getting a bit better now, but there was a time when if I could have, I would have ripped my own vocal cords out and traded them so I could sing better. There are still nights when I close the door to my room and stay up till past 3am, singing until my throat hurts too much to continue, trying to get better.
Sometimes I think it sounds okay, and even pretty... But that only lasts a few seconds before it's back to finding things to hate. It used to be so much worse. The only reason I'm asking is because some people think I'm nuts because they like my voice, but there are a few that think I'm just fishing for compliments. Really, I'm not.
So... Is it normal?