Is it normal to hate your own mom as much as i do?

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I hate my mom and have hated her for longer then I can remember. Normally I can ignore her but recently It's gotten to a point where when she does something to piss me off I have to look away immediately and go into a different room because once she does something to get me my blood rushing if I see her for even half a second I would lose control and beat the shit out of her out of blind rage.

She got divorced once but I was to young to remember my dad and we seemed to get closer. I used to be a mamas boy and did all my chores without being told and everything. She got married again and I liked the guy and we got along and he would always take me places like Disney Land or gokart racing. When she got pregnant with my brother she for some reason started accusing him of cheating and he eventually left. This happened when I was 9 and that's when my rage for her was born.

Ever since he left everything became my fault and im the reason he left and I'm the reason she can't do anything and I'm an idiot and worthless and stupid and will never amount to anything more then the most disgusting homeless person on the face of the planet.

I obviously went through some depression too and couldnt wait to move out. I've finally gotten to a point where I blocked out the depression but now I can't find a place to rent that I can actually afford. No family in the same state either. Every place within an hour of my work is over $900 which means I would either have to give up my car and take 2 hours on the bus to work or give up food. This fact is making it worse even to the point just seeing something that reminds me of her puts these violent urges all through my body.

Is this rage I feel towards her normal?

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Based on 30 votes (17 yes)
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  • barney93
    11 years ago

    it seems like she messed up her life and is misplacing all her anger out on you, theres no way you can make her come to her senses iv seen people like this way too often, theyre off in their own world where nothing is their fault because they simply cant live with knowing they ruined their one and only life. its one of the worst thing a parent can do and happens far too often. you should try to look at all the positive things in your life andn focussing on being happy and giing up on trying to make her happy so that when your older you dont end up doing the same things she does. every time your getting abused by her just think that she is crazy and nothing she says has any sort of truth to it, you seem like a smart person and you have lot of potential so dont let her ruin it (:

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  • drail400
    11 years ago

    I rlly dnt Understand how she contributed 2ur failures.

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  • imawierdo
    11 years ago

    have you ever told her how you feel? or asked her why on earth would she do that?

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  • kelili
    11 years ago

    You really need to move away from the bad influence. I hope you find a place to move in. Your mom will realise how much your presence has been reassuring once you leave her and maybe your realtionship will eventually change. Be patient and don't do anything silly

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