Is it normal to hate/resent my family so much
hate is probably a bit strong but they all anger me so much, i know my problems are nowhere near as bad as some families problems so i dont mean to sound incredibly ungrateful (i am grateful for everything good that comes my way but the bad things just anger me so much) or anything. so basically my mum is incredibly mean to me about my appearance by always saying i look really pale or like a ghost, im not actually that pale im normal irish person pale but she just always feels the need to take little digs at me all the time and if i was to go somewhere like to the post office or pick up my wages (which is like a 5 minute walk - so i wouldn't be out properly for like a few hours) she would say i hope your putting makeup on or something like that and i have really bad self-esteem now, she would also say these things infront of someone else and its really hurtful. then theres my dad i do love my dad he's very sweet but its kind of awkward talking with him cause theres never anything to say really so its just silence a lot of the time and mum basically controls him and like if she wants me to do something she'll tell my dad so i have to say yes cause i feel bad saying no to him cause he does everything for us - he works everyday for about 11 hours a day then comes home a does more work and im incredibly appreciative for what he does. then theres my brother - he's a drug-addict (he does weed and methadrone or something like that not sure what else) and my parents refuse to believe it even though he does it around them and has it in his room and his room stinks of weed so you can tell and he always steels money off of me i think hes probably stolen in total about somewhere between 1 - 2 thousand pound ( which i would work for) and any time he does it he doesnt even get in trouble my dad would give me the money and make him work it off which i find doesnt do anything seeing as he keeps doing it he also stole everyones christmas bonuses from my dads work so my dad paid for that as well but he is just so ungrateful what my dad does for him it just angers me also anytime he steels money off of me my mum always says its my fault for leaving it in a place he would find it and that its my fault im an easy target even though i hide my money in places i always think he wont find them - like in my art portfolio thats also hidden, he still finds it- but i get given off to by my parents also buy him stuff which he eventually sells for money for drugs - he also sells my stuff aswell, but nothing gets done bout that- and then my parents just replace it again and he has so many pairs of nikes/vans its ridiculous he has more shoes than i do and im a girl! also hes now 19 so they cant force him to do anything like get help but he started all this when he was 16 and they did nothing for 2 years and now wonder how to help him. he gets really weird sometimes as well like in the morning if he hasnt any drugs he'll be really panicked and angry until he gets some its kind of scary and if someone calls for him and tell him someone was on the phone for you earlier he gets incredibly paranoid asking if it was police or saying someones coming to get him cause he owes money or something like that. so is it normal for me to hate them so much? my other 2 brothers arent that bad luckily enough but my sisters a bit of a bitch towards me as well! thanks in advance and sorry its so long :)