Is it normal to hate my mom this much?

Is it normal to dislike or hate your own mother?

My thing is with that, my mom acts like a raging bitch all the time. And it doesn't help that she is an alcoholic. She's been an alcoholic way before I was born. My older two siblings had to put up with her but not in the same ways I do. There are many things about her that makes me deeply feel like she doesn't like me and I was simply in accident. And she she has told me this once before.
I didn't really start to hate her till I was in High School. When I was in high school I was a little older then the rest of the kids, because i repeated 2 grades. And because of this my mom often told my Sister and other family members "I don't think she is going to graduate" But what made me notice my dislike for her was what she told me one morning after I missed the bus. I had missed the bus because I forgot to turn my alarm on. No, this wasn't my first time doing this. I slept with my door close and I was always the first out the door in the morning at 5 in the morning to take transfer to school. On this morning, she had hang over because she spent the day before off from work drinking like she always did. When she saw me standing their asking for a ride to school on her way to work. She started to yell at me. Told me "You can't count on anyone in this world. Not even me. Don't count on me to be there for you." And I start to cry and front of her. And my Sister and her girl friend hears this yelling. I asks my sister to talk to me. She didn't feel like talking me that morning. And my mom went on to yell at me. "Save all them fake ass tears, nobody got time for that bullshit." And I didn't say anything back. Not one word. She then walks off to go back to the bathroom and said "I should had in abortion with you when I had to chance" Letting me know then and there my birth was an accident. I started to cry more. My sister told her this was wrong to say, but she didn't care. She was hung over and still have drunk from the day before. My sister decided to bring me to school just so I could get away from all hear yelling and mean words. That day she told my sister "tell your sister I am sorry" My own mother couldn't even tell me to my face she was sorry.
From there my life with her grew worse. After my sister moved out again, it was just the two of us. Because she was the only one working. She wouldn't have money sometimes because she had drank her money or "lost" her money when she accused others in the house of stealing it. My mom would pawn anything she could get her hands on for money. Which in meant my things too. Over the years I've had 4 tvs pawned, 2 game systems pawned. After she couldn't go back to get them because she still had no money. My things would get sold. She would replace the things, but eventually they were pawned again.
And when ever she did pawn them for money, she always made sure she bought herself something to drink. That's how she always is, no matter how tight money got she would always find enough to drink.
Her drinking is annoying and frustrating and it's too much. I try my best to never go anywhere with her when she drinks. Because it means baby sitting her. Keeping track of her. Her being embarrassing. Even around family she would be this way. My family knows she has problem but no one says anything. If someone does she is proud of it, boasting about it. "Yeah I drink." Like it's something to be proud of. I don't bring friends around, the few I do have. Sometimes when she isn't looking. I pour out half bottle she drinking out of and put soap in it or water. And she will still drink it.
My Mom is always bitching. Always, always every single day. If I do something right she still bitches about it. If I want to do something for myself she bitches about it. I'm a certified chef and she goes behind my back puts things in my food. And she think she is right about every little thing. I don't even argue with her because it's pointless. It makes me want to kill myself just talking to her.
The smallest things she does drives me nuts.

She leaves out stuff on the counter when she has to pass the trash to put it there. She will leave out plates of food in her room and the next morning set in the kitchen. Attracting fruit flies and other bugs. She drinks up anything in the fridge with out leaving me some. if she does it's not even enough to make half a glass. She set half eaten food in the fridge and never comes back and eat it. She bitches about taking the trash out, filling the water jug, letting the dog out, taking the bathroom trash out. All things she DOESN'T do herself.

To farther add to why I hate her, she isn't supportive. She isn't there for me. She makes me feel bad I am upset. She never supported me going to culinary school. She told my aunt one time on the phone when she was drunk "She can't cook, I'm not putting my names on this forms and the government comes after me cause she didn't finish school." My aunt heard the words from her mouth. The next day my mom is sober and yells at me cause she said I told my aunt what she said. When I didn't.
She's like this with anything I want to do. The only time she supports whatever it is I do, is when she feels like she can get something out if it. After I got my school refunds she started trying to butter me up. If my Dad (who left her when I was 4) gives me money, she always has to ask "how much he gave you" whenever I get money "how much you got." Now that I am out school it's still about what I can do for her "If you get this job it would be big help for me." She hasn't said one thing about helping me get driving classes. She's never asked what I want to do with the rest of my life. It's more like she wants me to do what she wish she had done with her life. It's more like she is trying to keep me to herself, groom me so I can take care of her when she can't. Even before he did the things he did, she didn't like him. Never gave him a real chance.
And I can't say she only does this with me.
She pretended to like my brother's ex wife and his current wife. She doesn't like my sister's girl friend. Only pretends like she does. Call her names behind her back. She doesn't like anyone.

I don't feel a any relationship at all with this women.

And if I said any of this I just wrote. she would say "I'm the mother, your the child. I can do that."
I know this is a lot. But I had to finally get this off my just. Just don't know if it's normal to feel this way about my other mother.