Is it normal to hate my crush?
I have a crush on a friend. I told her and she rejected me. She was actually really mean about it saying I shouldn't have imagined she'd want to go out with me as she's way out of my league. It was really awful and childish as we're 26 and 28. I felt as if she could have handled it better.
She later apologised and we became friends again. I still have feelings of attraction to her and I'm obsessing about her, but I also hate her for how much she hurt me. It's caused me to act up and be a jerk to her from time to time, pick at her and say mean things, call her names randomly when she hasn't done anything. I don't think we will ever get along again like before. We were really good friends for a long time. I can't get over what's happened.
We have talked it over a few times and it looked like things were going to be okay, but I stil can't get over it.