Is it normal to hate my brother this much?
I'm not going to give the EXAMPLES of his stupidity in fear of boring everyone, so I'll just cut to the chase.
I HATE my brother. He is HALF my age but literally the WORST born-brother ever. My parents fucked him up worse than me, but he didn't even need THEIR help - he could have done it himself.
I want to kill him. I think about it more often than I probably should. Even when we get along it's only so there will be peace in the house, I hate the faggot (not in the homosexual way, just the stupid-as-fucking-fuck way) and think about stabbing him while he's awake and (attempting) at shredding his skin with my teeth. I want to claw at him, I want to show him his own intestines.
And honestly, I get scared at gore. I like blood, but can't stand those types of things. He is the only person I have ever thought about killing often, and detailed.
He's a stupid ignorant, baby brat. I won't do it now but someday, maybe when I'm perhaps a little older...whether by me or an accomplice or if I decide to call a hit on him, I want to watch him suffer.
I don't want to ruin my future or be thrown in jail, and actually I'm being a hypocrite here because I strongly believe nobody has the right to end someone else's life.
Except in my brother's case.
What can I do until I'm old enough to move out? He's a brat that leaves the house on his own and if I prayed I'd pray he get hit by a car or kidnapped.