Is it normal to hate my best friend?
I am an only child which probably answers the below problems.
I have been best friends with a girl for about 4 years now. We were inseparable for the first two and now we are at sixth form we arent. She is rude, takes me for granted, big headed and complains about everything with snide little comments. And some of her little personality traits annoy me so much. She also really intimidates me, because I hate conflict, she totally kicks off if i dont see her or something. Shes very needy aswell. If I did anything to remove her from my life it would be hell, we have all the same friends. We can have fun together but if we make plans I dread them, and try to make excuses to get out of them.
So all annoyances aside, I can deal with them and have done for ages. But I have no idea why I feel this way at all! I complain about it to a few of my friends and they feel the same way!
Whenever she hangs out with any of my friends when Im not there or anything it pisses me off so much, I have NO idea why. Like when shes out and im not I get so annoyed and jelous. She really wants to come out clubbing with us, and I keep thinking NO GO AWAY.
Here is the worst spoilt part, I get very jelous over materialistic things, like her blackberry, or the fact she got better predicted grades then me or a recent job. I have no idea why! My predicted grades are good, I have an amazingly paid job which ive been at for years and lots of lovely things!
Shes supposed to be my best friend? I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I HAVE SO MUCH HATE, I dont get jelous of anyone else!
Someone please help me out I think i need councelling/slap in the face