Is it normal to hate my best friend?
I've been bestfriends with, lets call her "Amy", for 2 years now. She is utterly amazing, we have the same humour, same intrests and everything. When I talk to her we both cant stop laughing and she makes me feel great. But I have another bestfriend called, lets say "Sarah", and we have been bestfriends for about 2 years too. We also have the same intrests, same humour and everything. To you this might seem like this is the perfect friendship group, right?
But for a year now, I secretly hate Amy. She can be so great at times and then other times she cant be so annoying! She kicks off at me for the slightist thing, the slightist disagreement turns into a argument. Also, secretly Sarah hates her too. Sarah and Amy have never had the best of relationships, Amy hates Sarah too. So basically I'm stuck Im the middle of my bestfriends.
I love Sarah and at times I wish It was just me and her and Amy was gone. Amy is just so.. inconsiderate. She tells me Im her best friend, and then at the weekend she'd go out with her other friends and boast about it. She'd paste all over Facebook and Twitter about how much of a great time she's having and KNOWING that I would read It and feel like sh*t. I know she does that just to piss me off. She'd also have a go at me If I cant come out to hang out with her or spend money, she constantly wants her own way and If she doesn't get it she'll have a fit. The other day she shouted at me because I bought my favourite sandwich from a shop and it was the only one and she wanted it.
While she's having a fit she'd say some horrible things to me and Sarah like " Go die. " "F*ck off, waste of space. " She'd punch walls and throw her things all over. One time we were walking to school and Sarah got into a disagreement with her about a concert and she flipped. She started throwing her bags at the walls and start punching them and shouted at her to " go f*cking die! ". Then when I stuck up for Sarah she'd just get worse, this was even in a public place.
She'd purposely start arguements with me over Twitter and Facebook just so everyone can see it and then laugh about it with her other friends later. She's made me cry so much, even at school, and she just doesn't care! She thinks she's always right and nobody can touch her.
For over 4 months now me and Sarah have been talking about College after we leave highschool later this year. We had it all planned out and Amy was going to go to another College so we were both happy. But then Amy now wants to go to my College. I DONT WANT HER THERE.
I am SO angry that she wants to follow me to College, I just want her to go away and leave me alone. But I cant find the corage to tell her to her face.
Do you think I'm over reacting?
What should I do?
Is THIS normal?