Is it normal to hate me so much

Go to college, most places do evening courses & get your gcse maths & english to a-c grade or at least a grade 4 in the new ratings, they may let you study them f.o.c., the EU does a lot of funding for such courses. College will increase your social circle, is a perfect way to make new friends, nights out & perhaps to find a love interest. Try googling Learndirect & see if they offer those courses/qualifications online, they should be f.o.c. also.

This is the benchmark that a lot of employees look for according to the CBI. Also those should unlock access to further courses at college if you wish to do so. 2 strong maths & english gcses are good, 5 are better.

As other posters have said why not consider learning a trade. Be your own boss & earn a small fortune.

Most people in this current job market has to retrain at some point in their life, or have to train periodically in their careers to keep their skills relevant.

You're still young, if you are unhappy (which you obviously are) do something to change that & give yourself a fighting chance.

As for shovelling shit I did it when I was much younger. Was it fun? No, was it an honest living? Yes & that is a hell of a lot more than some people do with their lives.

Justin Bieber is one hell of a drug...

i lived in england 2 1/2 years and the island sucks , it offers little in the way of jobs or self employment opportunities . the freemasons control everything in england its like being born into slavery. i hope you can get to the USA someday because one thing immigrants know that americans dont know is you can make your own job and get rich in the USA. people get rich selling cold fruit cups on the beach in the USA. Its like taking money from babies over here. and the women ARE WAY HOTTER looking than english birds. you will have a handy capp with that english accent. americans dont really like british. we see all of you as pompous assholes. But , still its worth a try to get over here anyway you can. as fore education the richest americans never finished college so dont buy into the big lie. we sell college degrees in the USA its one of our major exports.

Whatever you are good at keep doing it

Do ya'll have anything like the GED in Britain?

Damn, I must have blacked out and wrote a post.

Try to find your way into education again. Study by yourself or do whatever it takes. This is the primary source of your lack of sense of belonging somewhere. Also "moving to America" doesn't seem to help you in any way. You don't have a plan like moving to America to work for a project in an industry, you simply want to go to America just because you think it's a good idea, but it's a really bad idea. What you need to do now is to get back to studying, find an alternative way, a programme or anything to get into College and then University, since they're funding students a lot. Education is the first thing to do. Anything else you try will most likely fail again and again.

Normal people my age are doing things and going to college and hanging out together and shit, and just getting through life and I'm here mucking 17 horses out a day, 8am til 2pm, going home again and doing absolutely nothing because I have nobody to do stuff with and I've tried fixing that but people don't want to be friends with somebody like this and its easy to say go meet people but if it was as easy as that I would have people to call and go have nights out with and stuff...

Not really the place for the pity party but fuck it, worst that'll happen is some trolls will get off to the fact that somewhere in Scotland some idiot is contemplating fucking doing it all in...

Cheer up! Get your act together and Go back to school!!