Is it normal to hate life, but be happy?

Hi. I woke up this morning, and I was happy for the first time since I was 9. For no reason at all. I honestly hate life, and most everybody, but I'm not like "that emo-kid". I put on a fake smile every morning, make people laugh, and then go home and throw myself a pity party. I am seeing a psychiatrist, and I'm clinically depressed, but I'm not on meds (he says I make myself miserable, and I should just choose to be happy--which is not entirely unreasonable). Anyway, I'm not completely sure if I'm just happy or if I'm happy with being depressed. I feel like most people hate being sad, because it's a drastic change in normalcy for them. It's been so many years of telling my self "pretend like everything's fine, and don't make anyone else suffer because you're a cynic" every morning. I woke up this morning and completely forgot to think about that. I had a smile on my face for no reason AND I was sober--a first since I was 9 also. I don't understand why everyone makes a big deal about hating life. I hate work, no one has a problem with that. Why? Because most people don't like work. So why's it a bad thing that I hate life? Just because most people don't hate life? It's ridiculous. It's a very weird feeling, being happy. It's not natural to me at all. So it's kind of hard to answer that with a yes or no... Tell me what you think in the comments and vote on this: is it normal to hate the hypocracy of our society?

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67% Normal
Based on 46 votes (31 yes)
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  • ToTellYouTheTruth

    Your probably a really good person living in a completely dysfunctional world. I think and feel similar to yourself. It's admirable for you to choose to work with yourself and not take the medication. Although your psychiatrist is right.. you could choose to forget about it and be happy in ignorance like the majority but I got a feeling that isn't acceptable to you. You seem to have a rebellious conscious and like to challenge the status qou. Its easy to become cynical when things appear clear to you and are seemingly invisible to others. Keep in mind your psychiatrist can only be credible by comparing you to a conformed "social norm" and giving you the tools to be average and obedient. In reality he is more lost and misguided than you are. The world is crying for people like you. To stand up and speak out on its behalf. To challenge the confused conformed norm. Your right.. your real and I'd love to see you keep at it. There are few like you. Best wishes and happy hating ;)

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  • DavidS.

    No, mostly all that junk about "hating life" or whatnot, really means we hate our life...and you said it yourself-you are depressed. So, if you are depressed, and today you are happy ,enjoy it while it lasts..it is like a bottle of exquisite french champagne...it will run out soon enough...you probably are getting some benefit from seeing a psychiatrist..good luck.

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  • kellstar79

    Things will one day get better for you. Life doesn't suck forever as I once though it would

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  • TwistedLittleGirl

    Yep its 100% normal I'm happy but I hate life so your not the only one there are a lot of you and me out there they just don't tell people xx

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  • rin

    When I feel happy and energetic I feel odd b/c that's not how I've been my entire life. What I hate most about work is having to act happy and social w/ everyone, sort of a job requirement or I'd get in trouble XP, when I don't want to. It's tiring and puts me in a worse mood after.

    Are you saying you feel happy because you decided not to pretend to be happy?

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  • purpledino8

    I agree with you, but I'm learning not to complain about everything and just live, be happy with yourself and love,even tho I think this world is a horriable place, I don't actually belive anyone could be really happy.because there will always be something wrong in their life.there's nothing wrong with hating life tho..were all faking it,right?xD

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