Is it normal to hate a country very much?

So I'm living in this country that in my opinion is so disgusting. I hate it so much that I barely go outside, and sometimes when I do go, I barf on the worn out streets. The cities are so depressing and I feel like it's distroying me slowly and painfully. I can't bare to even think about the country, so I just stay inside my room, going on the computer and trying to forget that I'm even here. Every time I go to bed, I pray to Satan that I will either die or get Alzheimer's so I can mentally escape. IIN??