Is it normal to go back to your old morality?

Since weeks ago I still remain egocentric, only the staff twists my morals and fucks with my mind and my morals by rejecting every moral thing I do. I hate it and I’m embarrassed, therefore I picked six rules that are tried and true and all the fuck ups have stopped, they like my morals. At some point I was a solipsist who simply did no harm so what use is it trying to explain what “does no harm” means, these philosophies which people take too personally are bound to disappoint me so I became a misologist and nobody’s satisfied, I don’t care what people think about me any more, they believe in things that don’t exist so I went back to atheism and people think I’m an evil arsehole, it’s simply not true, people don’t face the reality for what I am, they simply see me with the mind’s eye. If people are stressed out at me it only proves that I’m different, so I’ll act normal which actually works and all the taking me personally has vanished which, to be honest, is boring, so even normalism disappoints me, I lost all trust in arguments, it’s simply the case that I follow my conscience based on what I do not what I don’t do, is that normal?