Is it normal to get turned on by tornadoes?
I'm a girl, 23. And I am turned on by tornadoes. And no, I'm not joking >m< It started a couple weeks ago after a night of no sleep, and I was watching a video about scary stuff, and one of the clips showed a tornado wrecking someone's house. Well that clip must have really affected me because I replayed it over and over, imagining what it must be like (honestly that is my worst nightmare.) But because I didn't really know anything about tornadoes before, I guess this really piqued my interest and I began watching more and more videos of tornadoes. Of them forming, destroying stuff, or just being there minding their own business. But what started out initially as like, a morbid curiosity kind of thing, turned into... something else. I recently began getting turned on by watching videos of tornadoes. The way they come down to the ground, the shape, the fast swirling and rotation, the power and force, the buildup and anticipation of watching one approach, and then the burst of chaotic energy (from close-up footage), it's orgasmic to me. And yes, I'm ashamed to admit, but I have... touched myself while watching. Am I weird or what? What is wrong with me! I feel so bad for anyone who loses their lives or their homes in a tornado, and I couldn't imagine it happening to me, but at the same time, I can't help this feeling I get from thinking or watching the videos. I should also mention I am autistic and I have had intense obsessions and fixations on things that have scared me before, I guess to try and learn more about them and make them more familiar so ergo less scary, but never have I had this before. I sometimes imagine scenarios where I get sucked up into the tornado, or it comes and destroys my house and everything I own. ?_? Am I the only one who feels this way? I'd love to see one one day from a safe distance and where I knew everything would be okay. So I guess my question is, is it normal?