Is it normal to get molested by older sister?

When I was around 3 years old my older sister was only 7 & was very sexual with her friends and these little girls were constantly acting like lesbians and humping and grinding all over stuffed animals or pillows or each Other. Well when I became 4 we shared a room so her and her friends begin to involve me in their shenanigans. My sister molested me in our bed and even had her friends hold me down while she had a Threesome with me and a teddy bear. :'-( I cried when all her friends went home and she told me to shut up & that I wasn't ever gonna be cool if I didn't like doing the "bang bang" with her and her friends. And if I told she would hate me and kill me in my sleep. So I never told. Next day I woke up in the morning her on top of me Grinding 69 style and.... I had my first orgasm. Then that night she fell asleep kissing and sucking on my breast. Then later that week my cousin spent the night and shared the bed and they had sex and then took turns performing oral on me. . .. I have NNever spoken about this out loud but have thought about it every day since I was 4 years old. . Between the age of 4 and 9 I was molested by my sister and several cousins. I begin to enjoy the orgasms but I knew it was wrong. Then I became addicted to masturbating every morning once I got ny own room and my sister couldn't touch me without getting caught. . . But is this sort of thing normal? Do most little kids get exposed to sex by older siblings? & im REALLY still wounded by this because to this day my husband doesn't satisfy me sexually and I fantasize about lesbian sex all the time and wonder if I'm bisexual because of those years of molestation. No one knows what I'm going through every day inside wondering who I am. . Or what I am. Ever since my sister told me to shut up I feel like I've been afraid to speak up for myself in life. . I just want a voice and I want to have a normal life. . . Am I normal????

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Based on 354 votes (125 yes)
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  • CountessDouche

    What happened to you is not normal. While it is common for children to experiment with sex acts, not knowing what sex acts really are, what you are describing seems to be something else entirely. It's highly unlikely that your sister "discovered" these sex acts (cunnilingis, 69) on her own. She was most likely reenacting abuse that she experienced herself, which is common amongst victims of molestation.

    Either way, I suggest that you see a therapist and start dealing with this trauma.

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    • brbeeee23

      Wow.the best and most accurate response and advice thus far. I agree and appreciate your comment. I actually believe my sister was sexually educated by means of molestation or rape and has never told anyone

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      • CountessDouche

        I'm so sorry that people here were rude to you. I suppose you have to understand that there are quite a few fake, illegitimate posts here and people are skeptical for that reason. I tend to try not to approach posts concerning childhood abuse or trauma in that manner, because I ultimately don't see the payoff...so you called out a troll and saved 30 seconds of your time at the risk of telling someone who underwent something terrible that you don't believe a story that they are already ashamed of. It's sort if sick, tbh.

        To all the doubters, yes it is possible to experience orgasm at an early age- women have all of the proper equipment from birth. The exact age of early memory formation is debatable. There is really no reason to write off this post.

        OP, I'm glad that you have taken the possibility of your sister being sexually abused into consideration. I honestly believe that this is what happened. Yes, children do experiment sexually, but it is a clumsy effort at best. Children tend to be all over the place and might respond to what feels good, although they have no conscious notion of it being sexual. Your sister was performing very specific sexual acts.

        This is very personal, but I do remember my first attempts at masturbation...they were completely unsuccessful because I had no idea what I was doing and where to touch, and mind you, this was in my early teens, well after sex ed. I honestly think that your sister was reenacting some sort of abuse, otherwise how in the world would she know what a clitoris is at that age?

        I do hope that you get the help you need, and I hope that you are able to reestablish a relationship with your sister. Again, my apologies for the response here. I don't think these are bad people. I think they are skeptical because of what they have experienced in this environment. I highly doubt any of them would have written you off on real life. Best of luck!

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        • brbeeee23

          I don't know how to thank you..... this post broght me to tears. I appreciate you being sincere

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          • CountessDouche

            Wow, lol, it feels nice to actually help someone here for once. Thank you too! I really hope everything works out.

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      • ChiefRunamuk

        Then how do you know if she never told anyone? Did you watch? Or was it you who did it?

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  • green_boogers

    You need to talk through this with a shrink.

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  • Parky_Parker

    If this has haunted you that long, you should really talk to a psychiatrist as soon as possible. It is NOT normal for siblings to do this to one another. I can definitely understand how that would traumatize a person, especially if this started when you were only 4 years old. As adults, have you and your sister/cousins ever discussed this?

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  • officer_dinkle

    It's normal to masturbate compulsively and fantasize after a traumatizing childhood experience like this. I would definitely make an effort to speak up! What they did ruined them, not you.

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  • BurningCity1131

    I don't know what age I was but I've been probably sexual with any child around my age (family) When I was really young me and my half cousin (girl) used to play a game. (kindah like house but different) and we did sexaul things like kiss, touch each other, dry hump, when I was a little older me and another half cousin (boy) did sexual things, around the same time my older brother and I started sexual things. When my dad found out he wasn't sure what to do, after a while he started sexually abusing me, told me not to tell or he would get sent away for a long time. He was the only family I had at the time (My brother went to live with his mom) After we moved. Me and my niece started playing a thing we called "The Game" since there was a show we watched also called "The Game" on BET. We became sexually active too, I had my first orgasm with her. I knew because I seen "Stars inside" and I passed out right after. So yeah your sister being sexual with you is not Normal but it is normal (if that makes sense?) My dad passed when I was 12. So no I'm not sexually active with him anymore, Oh and I figured out I was Bisexual by being with my niece.

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  • volvonut84

    Seems a bit young. My big sister and I didn't hook up until I was 15 and she was 22 and married. Her husband was overseas and she was teaching me to dance and well...the horizontal mambo was the result.

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  • firelover

    Seek help talk to a councilor and try going to a sex therapist. They could help you with your sexual dysfunction with your husband and help you understand if your gay, bi, or str 8 I am male I got abused by my Babysitter who was female I was only. 10 she was 16 . I was also abused by a bunch of girls after walking home from school one day. It took me a long time to understand my sexuality and my fetish for Matches and fire and candles wax but I had to come to an understanding that I had been molested and that this is what had been used and done to me. Now I understand but I still have a Matches and Fire fetish

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  • dameda

    Of course it is not normal, why are you even asking this question?

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  • ChiefRunamuk

    IF that is an actual memory, it happened when he was old enough to know what was going on but he enjoyed it. He’s telling the story with this narrative to distance himself from any wrong doing and throwing his sister under the bus. At least throw her under my buss so I can butt fuck her properly

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  • ChiefRunamuk

    You people that fell for it are bleeding hearts. And gullible.

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  • ChiefRunamuk

    You don’t have memories from when you were 3. Especially sexual ones. Your brain at that age is doing its best to develop so you can walk, talk, and understand the concept of home and family. She could have sat her twat on your head and face and you wouldn’t have had any idea what was going on. Making it as insignificant to you as grass growing. Do you have memories of your grass growing, too??

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  • Zekorae

    I've had a similar experience to this too except me and my sister are still close and I care about her but absolutely hate her and wish she was dead at the same time. I feel conflicted, confused and disgusted.

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  • Prettyinpurple

    In no way should any family member molest you. The same thing happened to me when I was really young. I remember my sister always on top of me holding me down grinding on me. I tried to fight and get away but I couldn't. I always wondered why as I became older I was always so shy, anxious, and angry. We as victims don't ask for this regardless of what was done to the abuser, and my question is Where were the parents, adults, caretakers? I was innocent, just like yourself and others alike. My sister asked me if I remembered as adults and I said yes. She apologized and I accepted but that put a strain on our sister relationship. I found myself as time went on grinding on pillows and teddy bears because that was all I knew.The sad thing about it all is that our cousin did it to her on the regular but she never mentioned it or apologized. I have been to therapy about this but because of it, Ive had messed up relationships, broken friendships, trust issues, bullying(high school)low self esteem,I didn't know who I was. Just recently I confessed to my father about what was done and he said he already knew from my sister about what our cousin did to her but didn't tell him she did it to me. So I told him. I was hoping that when I was younger that I didn't show any signs of molestation towards him. My life has been up, down, I've been in a state of depression and have been diagnosed as having Major Depression. In High school I was always in the guidance counselor office because of bullying. Hated to go to school.
    I'm so sorry this has happened to you and I know exactly what you went through and how that made you feel. I hope you heal from this, and remember you're not alone. Take Care and God bless.

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  • Blubunny

    Your story is so identical to mine! I thank you for writing it because for so many years I've wondered the answer to your question! My sister was 9 and I was 4 when it started and she always swore it was "experimentation" but I never wanted to experiment. But still I believed her, that I was an equal partner in it but all I felt was fear and disgust in the first few years. Eventually I used it to get "acceptance" and "love" from her, something I was never able to have from her. She was very mean and manipulative and would hurt my brothers and I whenever she wanted. She was our half sister and my birth mother hated her and treated her bad so I felt sorry for my sister. She was angry and alone and hated us because we had a mother that loved us and she unfortunately didn't. I felt sorry for her and feared her at the same time. Our father loved her but he was always at work.... Like you I experienced orgasms by myself through masterbation at the age the sexual acts started. So it is totally possible to have an orgasm at that age! I am so sorry for what you have gone through and I thank you for writing.

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  • Jocd

    My sister caught me wearing her panties and lingerie. She blackmailed me and basically made me her sissy slut.

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  • richmanjoe

    Someone taught her that. Someone needs to go to jail.

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  • Lonely2

    Childhood sexual experiences are normal in some way but when they cross a certain line usually there is a problem with parental supervision.....in other words most kids have curiosity and may engage in exploratory behavior but sex to orgasm at a young age or against someones will is a sign of dysfunction ....your sister was very experienced sexually at 7 and then used her experience to impose her will on you...this may have affected your sense of self and ultimately your sexual expression....it could be a source of confusion for you today...that is what sexual abuse does..it confuses and creates negative feelings around sex which hurt our sexual expression....its good to talk about it with a professional...to journal about the feelings and thoughts and possibly even confront your sister about it

    It is important to rememeber what happened was not your fault...the goal here is to process your feelings so that your energy is liberated and you know who you are and what you want

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  • deepthought33

    The only thing I would add to this is that you no longer need your past to figure out your sexuality now. Maybe when you were younger and still maturing you could say your past has altered you in some way, but now you are an adult free to embrace whatever sexuality truly pleases you.

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  • brbeeee23

    It hurts my feelings that people can be so heartless and think this is a joke. . . I recall being molested at 3 years old because I remember I was never the same after. I have Never forgotten it and I probably never will. And yes my sister did cause me to experience what I believe was sexual arousal and even an orgasm at 4 years old. Do some fucking research you idiots who don't think it's possible. It happened and my life has been changed ever since. In high school I was very confused about my sexuality and I am a mature working married woman. My husband is an engineer and I'm a registered nurse. It wasn't my fault that my sister and her friends were so sexually exploitative and I have Never talked about it because of fear of being judged. I'm human. I was a kid and I didn't know what to do. But I remember my parents frequently leaving us alone because they had to work and my grandma would baby sit us by sleeping on the couch. Zero supervision. It happened and I'm just wondering if this sort of thing has happened to a lot of other people. But I realize something. My husband and I may have a daughter or son soon and if what happened to me even slightly happened to me it would Not be okay so no. I'll just answer my own question. It's not normal to be molested by Anyone Ever. Period. To everyone who had negative bullshit accusations toward me: if you're gonna invest your time trying to hurt someone just pour yourself a Fucking Cup of Bleach and Drink u it up. Fucking ass holes.

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    • walkingzombie

      dont let the negative people drag u down Im sorry you had thease experiences. please seek help for your own sake. it will only get better . keep your chin up :)

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    • Rufusparakeet

      Hi, I am truly sorry for the pain you experienced as a child. I cannot even imagine what this must feel like. As another poster said, people are skeptical of what they read here (and on other blogs) because these areas seem to be more of an outlet for people to post wild fantasies more than tragic realities. So I apologize for everyone who doubted your story.

      No one who reads this should question your story because they doubt you have the ability to remember that far back. I have several vivid memories of (both happy and scary) events that happened to me when I was 3 years old and I could easily provide a detailed and accurate description of these events which have been verified by all of my older siblings. So, I see absolutely no reason to doubt your ability to remember a series of traumatic events that happened to you at that age.

      I also agree with the other posters who said that your sister must have experienced molestation from an older person and then repeated this cycle of abuse with you. Not only was her sexual abuse specific and direct, but most 7-year-olds do not threaten to kill others in their sleep. It is even possible that this was a variation of the same threat made to keep your sister quiet and cooperative when she was abused.

      Please, go seek professional counseling as soon as possible. You really need to talk this out with someone who understands this and can help you work through the feelings of pain, anger and helplessness that you are experiencing.

      I wish you the best of luck in your healing.

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