Is it normal to get molested by older sister?
When I was around 3 years old my older sister was only 7 & was very sexual with her friends and these little girls were constantly acting like lesbians and humping and grinding all over stuffed animals or pillows or each Other. Well when I became 4 we shared a room so her and her friends begin to involve me in their shenanigans. My sister molested me in our bed and even had her friends hold me down while she had a Threesome with me and a teddy bear. :'-( I cried when all her friends went home and she told me to shut up & that I wasn't ever gonna be cool if I didn't like doing the "bang bang" with her and her friends. And if I told she would hate me and kill me in my sleep. So I never told. Next day I woke up in the morning her on top of me Grinding 69 style and.... I had my first orgasm. Then that night she fell asleep kissing and sucking on my breast. Then later that week my cousin spent the night and shared the bed and they had sex and then took turns performing oral on me. . .. I have NNever spoken about this out loud but have thought about it every day since I was 4 years old. . Between the age of 4 and 9 I was molested by my sister and several cousins. I begin to enjoy the orgasms but I knew it was wrong. Then I became addicted to masturbating every morning once I got ny own room and my sister couldn't touch me without getting caught. . . But is this sort of thing normal? Do most little kids get exposed to sex by older siblings? & im REALLY still wounded by this because to this day my husband doesn't satisfy me sexually and I fantasize about lesbian sex all the time and wonder if I'm bisexual because of those years of molestation. No one knows what I'm going through every day inside wondering who I am. . Or what I am. Ever since my sister told me to shut up I feel like I've been afraid to speak up for myself in life. . I just want a voice and I want to have a normal life. . . Am I normal????