Is it normal to get angry cause you don't have the same joy as others
Today I was watching a album pictures of a friend, and I was looking at these pictures and i toughd, why isn't my life as great as their is.
And I got so angry I almost felt like I would explode, it's actualy sad. And I feel sad for myself for having these feelings. It's like desperate feeling.
I think cause I would like to have and experience the dame things and I never do.
I get the feeling that some of people never experience these kind of state of mind as I do now. It's like we live in totally different worlds.
It's really sad , I wish I could change it. Everyone should enjoy life.
And I am not some fat guy with no motivation , I am probably more disciplined then most these people and I know in some cases I would be able to survive and take care of me and others. Cause I was had this hard life and I feel like I have hardened up.
But tlwhat do I get from this, nothing . It means nothing. I am never ever going to have to use these skills or discipline .
We don't live in the age the strongest have to survive.
I feel so useless and I miss having fun cause I can almost taste how good an enjoying it must have been for these people on picture. I would like to have the same. And I wish the same for all of us. To be happy