Is it normal to feel weird when people are nice to me?
I guess it is because I am used to people not liking me(heard because I look mean, or intimidating, or it could just be because theyre haters and jealous when idk why cause there are tons of horrible people out there and people like them, I dont get it I am not bad at all) so when someone is nice to me without looking at me weird or bad, I feel awkward...I dont know what to do afterwards like laugh with them? smile? hmmm. Usually I say what I want and people are like whatever and leave with a good attitude feeling good about myself because I dont care what people think anymore. Im over not being likeable and I just don't care anymore. So when someone is actually nice I'm like wait what? Like you actually didnt look at me weird? or laughed with me? Haha? I also feel like ok they like me so pressure for not letting them down and turn them into not liking me. Its like people who dont like me give me this boost of confidence I love and motivate me while when people who appear to enjoy my company pressure me to stay that way so I dont change their minds about them liking me. I just know that the people who know me love me and those who only know me by my name and face, don't. OH WELL.