Is it normal to feel this way?

is it normal to know that you are really attracted to guys but kinda attracted to girls? especially when you were raised being told that being bi, lesbian or gay is wrong and not something to brag about? or is it just from being hurt by two guys within a span of two weeks. ive always kinda known something was wrong with me and deal with the depression that comes with it by writing and burning the pages so no one else knows whats wrong. if they did i'd most likely get some long lecture or rant from them saying how i feel is wrong and on and on and on. so i dont usually open up about anything this importaint to anyone anymore.