Is it normal to feel the need to disrespect women?
I actually feel better about myself if I psychologically disrespect women. Have you heard of the term "psychic vampire"? I'm not sure it's the same as this JOY that I get when I disrespect vulnerable women. It's like a drug. Now who are the vulnerable women? They are women that I make friends with just to break them afterwards and make them feel like shit. I grow my hair long so I can let them have something to identify with and in the end I become a total asshole. I even broke this girl and made her believe that it was normal...there you go I guess I answered my question. I even disrespect powerful women who can potentially offer me a job. It's like I NEED it! When I can't disrespect women I feel uncomfortable and I destroy myself with drugs (weed, shrooms, insence, hardcore porn and violent videos). This makes me want to kill a woman if I can't disrespect her but I know I can't do that. Still live with my mom, mostly doing freelance work and studying over the distance so I disrespect her on a daily basis. But I enjoy doing it to younger women as I see them as more stupid and easyer to fool.
I become their friend, find out where they live, where they work, get their number, take them to a date, (fuck them), get involved in audio-visual projects with them, and just when they are so dependent on me I use one of these informations against her so I can hurt her.