Is it normal to feel stuffed and suffocated?

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So I want to ask if it's normal that I want to say "Fuck it!" and run far away.

Let me tell you why.. I'm 18 and my parents are missionaries in South Africa, obviously Christian missionaries and clearly I've been raised in the fear of God, but lately I've been feeling like my life is useless.

I don't do anything. I don't drink, Don't party, Don't have sex, Don't go to wild raves. But I'm not exactly a good girl, I've smoked (got caught) and that's about it. I follow the rules of the Bible (sometimes) I go to church, help with kids to avoid big church, but is it worth it?

The other day I cried because I realised that I felt trapped, like my life was just going to fly by without me doing anything with it. I question the existence of God quite often but then I get mad when people disrespect the religion, I feel as though I'm stuck in this boring space.

I want to live. The things is it's not like my parents are strict, they're actually very, very, chill! (My dad is.. Mother -not so much) I don't know if this is a thing with me restricting myself.

I want to have wild sex ! I don't want an STD or a baby ! I want to party but not get shitfaced and end up on worldstar. I want to fucking live!

But... I don't know how.

So after all that crap, I want to ask how do I live and not regret it? Is this normal or am I being... nonsensical?

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  • Short4Words
    8 years ago

    You're a legal adult now and the world is it at your fingertips, you just have to take it. It will take time and not be easy but living on your own is achievable.

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  • Azaman
    8 years ago

    Always question everything, and party in moderation.

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  • Steve2
    8 years ago

    Drop your ignorant and silly religious beliefs and move on to logic and science, which is what human beings do. Tell your parents to continue burying their heads in the sand, and one day, if they're lucky, they might suffocate to death and be able to join their little imaginary friend in the sky.

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    • Steve2IsAFatFuckingLoser
      8 years ago

      You have an imaginary girlfriend, imaginary university, imaginary car, imaginary money and basically an imaginary life so you can't really criticise, fuck face.

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