Is it normal to feel special for my teacher?
These days I felt a little crazy about my university professor. He's my chemistry teacher, and I like him.
The thing is that I don't know anything about him. I don't know his age, I don't know his birthday, I don't know anything. I like him so I feel too shy to chat with him. I don't get to know about him.
He's probably more than 10 years older than me, and I don't know how am I supposed to be so into a man who's so much older than me. And yeah, he's married, but doesn't have children.
I never miss his classes. I've missed all other courses at least once but never his class.
I love his eyes and beard. I love his smiles, and it's not very often that he does smile. I like his voice, and his jokes. He's always with this attitude that shows everyone he's very principled. He's so passionate on the subject he's teaching. I admire him. He's mysterious. He's so complex.
He remembered my name when I said it once. I couldn't believe it. He's just so special to me. Almost very distracting.
Actually I don't really know why I like him so much.
I think about him all the time. When he appears in my sight of view I get this mini tidal wave. When I don't see him I search for him, I want to know where he is. Sometimes I prevent seeing him cuz I don't know how to act. When I'm in his class I sometimes wish it ends faster because of the extreme awkwardness I feel, but when it's the end of his class I wish it never ends. I'm constantly in this contradicted state of mind. Yeah, I'm a little crazy now.
But I know it's impossible between us, so I don't make any approaches.
is it normal to have a "crush" on your teacher who's a lot older than you? what should I do?