Is it normal to feel so depressed and want to be prettier?
I get really depressed. Mostly from lack of friends and a boyfriend who I have a lot of troubles with, but whom I love more than anything. Also a rough upbringing and estranged family. People say I am smart, beautiful and sweet, etc. I am not so humble as to think its not true. I am insecure, but i think I have an accurate view of myself. I am not miss america pretty, though I am somewhat attractive. I feel like if I could become like that I would be happier. I look up pictures of girls that look perfect to me and fantasize about looking like that. I feel its doable, I just need to lose some weight (20 pounds, which is a mission but doable), tone up, and pamper myself with treatments like facial and waxing and pedicures and stuff. I feel then people would just come to me and wanna be my friend because I am nice and smart and a good person. The problem with me now is that I am shy and closed in so few get to know that about me, but I think that won't matter if I were really really pretty. Is it normal to have these fantasies?