Is it normal to feel sexually abused?

I know I'm not sexually abused, but I get very paranoid when my dad touches me. He doesn't do anything serious though. Just like hugs and a few kisses and all that other crap. Somehow, my mind keeps telling me that he like me more than a daughter and gets me all freaked out when he touches me. My mind has even gone over him raping me! I don't know what's so wrong with me. The closest he's gone to touching me is on my butt and that totally freaks me out, but his parents do that all the time so I think it came from them. You can also tell that he favors me way better then my oldet sister. My cousin who came over even said exclaimed that. I always make him go away assuming the worst, but I want to try to enjoy time with him while he still is here without the feeling that he may just go over the line with the touching. Please help!

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  • quentari

    Even if it's not his intent obviously his behavior is giving off a sexual vibe. Have you tried talking with your mother? Don't tell her you think he's going to abuse you, tell her you don't feel comfortable with the physical intimacy your father is giving you, especially since it's reserved for you and not your sister.

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  • bleach_baby

    It sounds like you're uncomfortable that your dad so clearly prefers you over your sister, and possibly hearing so much about sexual abuse on websites like this and on the news has made you paranoid. Perhaps you don't feel that you and your dad are close enough for him to be physically affectionate. My dad is quite an affectionate guy and hes done all the things youve said, including jokily smacking me on the bum (in a much less weird way than that sounds, lol). I personally don't mind, and I think it shows that he is in some way still relating to me as if I were a child, and not a 21 year old woman. If it really makes you uncomfortable, maybe make a joke about it being weird when he does it?

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