Is it normal to feel self conscious in a tshirt while being skinny

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so i used to get made fun of really bad for being skinny in 7th grade. i would get beaten up at school (stabbed with pencils, basketballs to the face, kicked in shin, face to the locker). i developed ptsd for a year. i couldnt leave the house. that went away a year after

from 7th grade on i couldnt wear shorts or tshirts. my self esteem never progressed ever. i started wearing like 5 layers of clothing. i looked like a puff ball. it was embarrasing. when i turned 16 i tried to gain weight. i gained 10lbs in a year. so i started wearing only hoodies and long sleve shirts. all year round. and it gets to be 90 degrees in the summer. for that reason i would never go out. people would ask me, why are you wearing that its so hot?! '

still to this day i never leave the house without 2 layers of undershirts plus a polo. thats only if its too hot to wear a long sleve.

i tried to gain weight for a really long time. it never really happened. until this past few months i started eating alot.

anyways im now 21 and i told myself if i ever hit 140 i would start wearing tshirts again. so today i hit 139. ive never weighed so much in my life. its also spring and its getting warm. i also got a large arm tattoo i want to show off.

but i just cant wear a tshirt in public still! it scares me. its crazy. i freak out at the thought of anyone seeing me with just 1 tshirt on. its terrifying. they will call me skinny and throw up in their mouth. im typing this and i realize how absolutely nutty it sounds but i litterally feel this way.

i swear i think i would actually have a panic attack if i went an entire day in a tshirt.

any advice?

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  • iwishiwasyourmom
    8 years ago

    Skinny guys are so cute, I like to pic them up and carry like a baby. I will save u from the bullies dear

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  • Ellenna
    8 years ago

    It's not normal to be so obsessed with your body weight and what other people think of you.

    Why don't you do it in stages? For example, going outside in just a t-shirt, then to the street, then walk a little way and so on. If you can't manage that I suggest professional therapy for your phobia or at least read a book on Cognitive Behavior Therapy and learn to change your thought patterns to positive ones

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  • C.A.D.(✿◠‿◠)
    8 years ago

    Totally ignore all of those comments and all of the bullying, be who you are and don't let others get in the way of your happiness! (And btw they were probably jelous cuz they thought they were FAT!)

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  • mysistersshadow
    8 years ago

    If i weighed 139 I wouldn't wear a tshirt either.

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  • deepdankstickygoo
    8 years ago

    You wear polo? Post automatically not taken seriously. It is all about what brand people wear. Its all about social status.....

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  • green_boogers
    8 years ago

    I was very skinny at age 21. Upper body exercise over a period of 5 years finally got the bones in my shoulders growing. Try lap swimming, rowing, etc.; you'll look better by age 30.

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