Is it normal to feel relaxed when constipated?

Ever since I can remember, I've liked when I was constipated. Whenever I'm constipated, I feel this weird sense of relaxation/calm/tranquility. I tend to relax and feel more at ease when I'm constipated. The risk is I don't wanna poop myself, and holding it in isn't good for my urethra. I like feeling constipated, it's relaxing for me, but I wanna keep my underwear clean.

I don't know if I should be asking if it's normal or if others feel the same way. In terms of normal, it's definitely not as bad as other things asked here.