Is it normal to feel really uncomfortable about this?
I listen to a lot of strange and complex music, including a lot of space rock, prog rock, psychedelic rock and art rock, and some of the bands I listen to used drugs to make the music, or sing about drugs at the very least. However, I do not do drugs. I never have, never will, and will not be convinced into doing them. I don't even know where to get them, not that I want to know.
I used to be okay with listening to this music, and I still listen to it of course, but recently I've realised just how many fans of this music do illegal drugs - millions of people, and it's getting me down because I feel so alienated. Now, whenever I listen to songs made on these drugs, or songs about drugs, I feel really uncomfortable and guilty inside, because I'm enjoying music that was made by people who used drugs that I myself have vowed never to try. For example, several Black Sabbath songs promote drug abuse, and now every time I listen to that band I feel ashamed of myself, because it's like the music is trying to convince me to turn to drugs. The fans of these bands (especially Sabbath and Floyd) also frequently discuss drugs, and if you say you don't do drugs they wonder why, as if fans of these kinds of music should be expected to do them by default. It's making it more and more difficult to enjoy such great music as a result.
I know it sounds weird but this is how I honestly feel, is it normal to feel this way? Because it's got to the stage where I can't get it off my mind. Really, I cannot stop thinking about it, and it's making me feel insecure and alienated, because I am in a minority. I am also frightened of what other people would think of me if I showed them my taste in music, because I am certain that they would instantly believe I do drugs if I told them I listen to bands like Porcupine Tree, Radiohead and Ozric Tentacles.