Is it normal to feel really depressed at night?
Hey everyone.
I have a fairly good life. I don't really have any friends, but I don't particularly mind too much. My family is usually good enough, but sometimes I do get lonely.
At night time, I'm alone with myself. I hate being alone and I know I'm going to wind up alone for the rest of my life. (Once I move out, I won't have anyone. I'm not good at making friends and I am not attracted to either sex.)
At night, I have time to think to myself every minor thing I have done or said that was wrong and I have time to dread the future. Sometimes I get really angry, sometimes I cry. Sometimes both. But mostly I just get really sad.
I find that I am only happy when I am distracted, as I am during the daytime when I watch TV, talk with people, play games, go places, etc.
Is it normal to feel depressed when you aren't being distracted?
How can I truly be happy? Do I have to distract myself for the rest of my life or is there a way to be happy without that?