Is it normal to feel next to nothing and be tired of life at age 18?

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In the last 2 years or so i have become more aware of my feelings. More specific that most arent there. Im now 18 and i think about ending it all. The only reason i havent is because of my parents and grandparents and i don't want them to think it's their fault. I have a lot of friends and they all seem to care about me. I don't really care about them. I have fun and i laugh and have a good time, but, really, i am tired of them. Most of the time i want them out of my life and i find myself calling them and wanting to hang up the second they answer. When it comes to theire feelings i act like i care, but i really don't. When they cry and are sad i do everything i can to help them, but i just don't feel it. I see myself as a nice person. i would rather be knocked out than to fight back. But the feelings is not there. I find myself being tired of everything all the time. I don't care about school, education, getting a license. I don't care about my future. I just want out. I never asked to be born and i just want to have peace. The times i am truly at peace is when i play videogames or when i am drinking and partying. I don't have to think about anything, just do what i feel like. Is all this normal? Is there anybody else who has it like me?

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  • skywarders
    12 years ago

    I felt really exactly the same way you did, everything similar, I wanted out because I seemingly had accomplished life, I didn't care for my family when they cried or died, I only felt good when partying with my friends, I never wanted to be born, I was rejected because of my high IQ or skin color and the only reason I didn't want out is because I wondered if there was an afterlife. I am a huge video game player and I was playing this game called Metal Gear Solid. At the end there is an Irish song, this song is called The Best Is Yet To Come. I looked up the lyrics and gave it some thought. After that my mind was settled, I know that my life is not exciting, but I can change that, I know it feels like I've accomplished everything, but that's not necessarily true. I formed a goal for myself, to travel the world and promised myself that I would first see what it has to offer and then I would decide if it was time to end myself. My point ? You never know what tomorrow will shape up to be, form goals, explore, discover, there is so much out there, you have to think outside of the box, make new experiences and hopefully when some years have passed you will have changed your mindset. I only wish you the best of luck and to have an illumination like I had last year...

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  • Audrina
    12 years ago

    Oh I remember feeling similar to this. You are on the brink of transitioning from being a teenager to becoming an adult. It can be very stressful and emotionally trying. It seems as if you are distancing yourself from your life, probably as a coping mechanism. Maybe it would be a good idea to seek help for the time being, be kind to yourself, and give it a little bit of time.

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  • BASEDOFWG
    12 years ago

    I'm 18 now and i have no friends no girls like me so its normal for me

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  • Buttsnot
    12 years ago

    It is normal. You live in america and are therefore doomed like the rest of us. Make the best of it.

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    • [Old Memory]
      12 years ago

      Oh really? Doomed?! USA, is awesome! Atleast most people in the USA actually HAVE video games! I was born in Ukraine, and do you know how poor it is?! I was so damned surprised when I came here.. Everyone is pretty much rich! Compared to my homeland anyway. Damn! You need to be more gateful for your country..:/ Maybe just be grateful for the little things.. I know things seem horrible but if you compare them to other countries, they don't seem so horrible after all.

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  • equanimity
    12 years ago

    Ending it would be a mean and nasty thing to do to your family. Get some help. You must stop wallowing in self-pity.

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    • paydity
      12 years ago

      you are a mean person.. dont you know this person is sick. not feeling self pity but sick. If people like you were not in this world maybe people like us could deal with the world beter.

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      • Jweezee
        12 years ago

        You're a mean person

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      • equanimity
        12 years ago

        Think what you want. I was recommending that the OP get some professional help because that level of self-pity is addictive and extremely unhealthy. And pointing out that suicide is a terrible thing to do to people you love is not mean. You are a fool if you can't see the truth in what I wrote.

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      • [Old Memory]
        12 years ago

        Hey lay off, equanimity was explaining his/her(it?) opinion on the matter. Suicide doesn't just hurt the person, it also hurts everyone that cared about them.

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        • InvadingPotatoLeader
          12 years ago

          You are a mean person

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  • whydad
    7 years ago

    Yeah i killed myself like three times when I was two.

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  • Stingrayxp
    11 years ago

    Sonetimes i feel that way so i know what its like.

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  • jor6767
    12 years ago

    Thank you guys, you've really helped :)
    btw; im not american

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  • Legion
    12 years ago

    sometimes, i feel the same way as you (right now for instance), except for ending it all. Thanks to the goal i set for myself at age 8, i have some motivation to keep going in these dark times. ''You may feel like quitting, but your mind says 'just one more round''.- sylvester stallone, rocky.

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  • SuperBenzid
    12 years ago

    When I was 18 I hated my life and had some pretty dark thoughts. But things got better for me and I think most people get a bit down around your age and then get happier. Please give your life more time, I am 24 now and I love my life but when I was 18 I thought I would never be happy.

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    OP have you tried seeing a counselor? It sounds to me like you have some sort of mindset that's holding you back. Try forming a goal and achieving. There's more to this world than video games and alcohol.

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